I hate when I know I shouldn’t be upset about something, but it’s still driving me crazy. I know I shouldn’t be upset because of him, but every time I think about someone else in his arms, it feels like a knife in the middle of my stomach. I can’t stop the water works. It hurts so bad. And then I think about how we used to fight so much. And then I think about when we...
Work was long, today. I snapped at Stevan, again. It’s really not my fault, though, if he would stop being such a self-righteous twat, I wouldn’t have anything to snap about. He seriously got this girl, who goes to his church and thought he was her friend, fired. Now, I know she shouldn’t have been doing what she was doing, but did he really have to rat on her and then tell...
Tonight was AH-FUCKING-MAZING. Photo shoot with sister. Nailed it, along with a contract with VIP Models. :D I had to sign model releases, photographers were handing me their cards and asking for my information. Holy. Fucking. Wow. Not too shabby for my first professional shoot, huh? Uber happy and it’s time for bed. Like a model. Stay 5280 high, folks. :]
I would be a total mess right now if it weren’t for my sister, Jovaughn, Candice and Jolene. These four are my rock, my heart and my family. <3 Gonna go blaze with Jovaughn. Stay 5280 high, folks. :]
Life is a learning process, and I feel like I’m finally starting to catch on.
I’m finally starting to get it. I don’t need him as a boyfriend, I need him as a friend, and I’m not losing him as that. I still have someone to help me in this crazy journey called life. My heart will mend with my other friends, and, when I’m ready, we’ll talk and laugh and everything will be okay between us again. Maybe our relationship is what was destroying our...
Everyone is in your life for a season, a reason, or a lifetime. You have the people that always have a special place in your heart, even if they were only in your life for a little while. They could be high school buddies, college class mates, co-workers or maybe even some random person you met through a friend. One things for sure, though. They made you smile. Maybe you fell apart after school...
I push everyone away. I'm so self destructive.
Hold your head high, heavy heart. My head hurts, my heart hurts. I’m so lost and confused. Gonna go smoke with Jovaughn and try to forget about it. Then it’s off to Azeroth for a bit, and then off to get shwasty with Ben. Leave me some love in my ask to come back to. :]
Words cannot describe how sorry I am or how lost I feel without you. I was horrible. I chose substances over you, I pushed you towards goals that I wanted, not the ones that you wanted. I should have been more understanding. I should have listened more. I should have realized that I was trying to change you, when you’re already perfect. Just the way you are. You hold me perfect, you scare...
This week fucking sucked. My eyes are swollen, and I burst into tears every ten minutes. I’m so over this bull shit. I need to move. Somewhere new, far away. I need a fresh start. Bring on the weed and Malibu. Fuck, I have to work in the morning.
I’m diggin’ the sexy-ness of Bert McCracken on my dash. Omnomnom. :]
The people that know you the best are the ones...
I love how every single one of my fellow senior associates has congratulated me on my promotion and said they knew I would do so good…and then I find out that they’re all saying no one’s going to take me seriously. Because I’m a woman. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? NEW FLASH: When I was training for my new position, I closed more deals than the FIVE guys that were also...
baronblack asked: dnd tonight. hanging out with my crush tomorrow :]
baronblack asked: bussy with finals :/ hahahaha. I just picked up some sick ass dank though :]
baronblack asked: How's it hangin pretty gurl? :]
I just don't give a fuck. :]
Regret nothing. Learn everything.
One rule of thumb:
DO NOT mess with me or mine. Because me AND mine will be all over you. Just sayin’…
I love when people post stuff like, “X amount until I have X hundred amount of followers!” ‘cause then I look at mine and I’m like, “37? Bitchin’.” Haha. You guys are doooope.
I really just want Tech to come back to Colorado. Dude, it’s been, like, three months. What the hell?
Today was SO good. :] Played hookie with Ben, met some new kids [Jordan, Howie and James], went to Red Rocks, hiked, smoked some greeeeen, watched Paranormal Activity 2 and Jackass 3. But the best part? When Ben was taking me home he said, “Seriously, you made my day today.” I’m all giggles and smiles right now.
I don’t understand how people can claim to be so “Christian” and then turn around and judge other people and act like they’re so much better than everyone else. Take this girl, Ashley, for example. Ashley works with me and she’s WAY into her religion. Which is cool, except for when she starts talking about how everyone that’s gay is going to go to hell because...
My mother just added me as a friend on Facebook. Uhm…what?
So, I def. haven’t smoked all day because I didn’t wake up until one in the p.m. and my grandpa’s been sitting on the couch watching TV all day. One good thing, though? When he goes to bed I’m gonna get so baked because I haven’t smoked since last night. Haha. :D
One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.– Marley
I Am Stoner We are Stoner. We go to work everyday. We’ve thought about life...– from highdeas.com (via maryjanesmokealong)
Uhm, it’s a Denver thing. ;]
I love my sister to the moon and back, but sometime’s I just want to smack her in the face and say, “Dude. Take a step back and look at your life and tell me what went wrong,” because I’m pretty sure she could have prevented everything. Yeah, I know you’re ex cheated on you and isolated you from everyone and treated you like shit, but you should have learned from it....
It’s past the end of the month. A few weeks ago, David said if he couldn’t find a job by the end of the month, he was going to enlist. Now, I have both friends and family in Iraq right now, and he can’t figure out why this bothers me. I wake up every day wondering if my loved ones are coming home or if I’ll ever see them again, and you really don’t understand? Sorry...
My wisdom teeth are coming in. Someone shoot me, this shit HURTS. Fuuuuck.
I dream too big for my own good.